Should I celebrate or mourn?
You left me all alone
To make way for a ‘nice’.
The layers have build up of the cast
It pains my heart to see the start
Of the happy, mesmerized life
I had asked for your love
Rejection is all you replied
Then came by a dream.
Everything I had asked for you in
Everything caring, everything frank
Perfect. He loves me with all his might.
Am so confused
Its like a roller coaster ride
I have been forced upon
I am so damaged n crippled
That a simple beam of sunlight makes me want to run away and hide
Goodness seems wrong. Everything wrong, right.
Acceptance is being so hard
Am fighting and avoiding with all my might.
All my energies, still craving for you
But you have already pushed me aside
I have nowhere to go but to the inviting light
Its calling my name all the while I am straining to hear a word from you
Oh nothing seems right
Nothing seems right
Swallow me inside n build a new me after the turmoil.
Published by Pranjulaa
An Msc in Creative Industries (Management) from Birkbeck, University of London, I wrote my first poem when I was only 13 years old, and currently I hold a collection of about 800 poems. I was enrolled into Poetry College, Batch of 2019 in Mumbai, and have Msc in Creative Industries Management, from University of London (2015). My poems have been published on Poetry Nature, Poets India, Image Curve and Nocturne Journal, amongst others. An author to “Short and Sweet Story”, published at Storytel as an audio book, I am now working on my first independent book of poems. Recently, I won a cash prize for a poetry competition based on a painting organized by Arts Illustrated and NDTV Mojarto. You can read some glimpses of my poems on @poetrybypranjulaa
I continue to work as an independent art consultant and researcher while managing my venture, Pranjal Arts which has a private collection of around 200 Indian art paintings.
List of awards:
•Awarded Scholarship for Creative writing by Mayo College Girl’s School, Ajmer(2011)
•Represented Birkbeck, University of London at British Chamber of Commerce Conference in London, UK as Potential Leaders of the future. (2015)
•Venue Ambassador, Birkbeck, University of London (2015)
•Invited for the “Thrive” Conference on Arts fundraising in Bath, UK (2015)
•Awarded on International Women’s day for showing international leadership in the field of Indian dance and poetry (2016 )
•Awarded the Lions Pride Award during the international service week.(2018)
•Selected for World Governance Expedition to Russia, organized by Vision India Foundation (2019)
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