Should I celebrate or mourn?
You left me all alone
To make way for a ‘nice’.
The layers have build up of the cast
It pains my heart to see the start
Of the happy, mesmerized life
I had asked for your love
Rejection is all you replied
Then came by a dream.
Everything I had asked for you in
Everything caring, everything frank
Perfect. He loves me with all his might.
Am so confused
Its like a roller coaster ride
I have been forced upon
I am so damaged n crippled
That a simple beam of sunlight makes me want to run away and hide
Goodness seems wrong. Everything wrong, right.
Acceptance is being so hard
Am fighting and avoiding with all my might.
All my energies, still craving for you
But you have already pushed me aside
I have nowhere to go but to the inviting light
Its calling my name all the while I am straining to hear a word from you
Oh nothing seems right
Nothing seems right
Swallow me inside n build a new me after the turmoil.